Something is holding me

Something is holding me
11 April 2026 J.W.H

Ssomething, a ghost, a spirit or a ball, I don't know what it is, finds me, my mother and my brother, no matter where we move. I'm here in Australia, my mom is in New Zealand. The first time it happened to me was when I was 18, lying in bed, staring at the curtains, when suddenly I couldn't catch my breath or scream for support. I told my mother about this and then she told me all about her experiences of being held down and unable to move or speak. My mother saw something at the end of her bed, my brother heard a voice (saying “I'm back”) and the three of us have the same thing happen when we feel really tired – it happens in a second. You are in a motionless trance, completely paralyzed, unable to scream for support and you are AWAKE.

Last week when this happened to me 6 times in a row, right after each other, I felt like someone was standing next to me, I looked and saw a dim white delicate. It moved from my right side and went over my head, then over my husband's head and stayed next to him. Black tentacles, or maybe hair, waved around this white delicate. First time I saw something and it was still there. I woke up my husband and told him to turn on the delicate. He took a sleeping pill and was too sleepy to get out of bed. I grabbed his cell phone which glows with delicate when you turn it on, I turned it on and we didn't see when he turned it off, it was still there. Until I finally fell asleep, a few hours later, I didn't take my eyes off it. My body was chilly and I had goosebumps all night long. My husband doesn't believe in such things, but he knew I was afraid of something I couldn't take my eyes off.

I told my brother, he saw the same thing a week before me. Last night my mother saw it – the first time in 4 years, but she went further and it entered her body, she saw the figure of an elderly woman and what she remembers most are the eyes of this woman, they were like the eyes of a lizard, green/bluish. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw my stepfather about to jump into bed and tried to scream at him. He heard a dim sound and thought she was choking, so he grabbed her to bring her down. The moment he grabbed her, she felt him leave her body through her left side. Once it was inside her, she said it let her know – it was back and she was in total control.

We have been blessed several times and our homes have been blessed, and it passes, but eventually it comes back. Me and my brother are afraid of this. My mom isn't scared, just really irate and pissed off at what's happening to us.

We don't know what to do.

  • J.W.H

    John Williams is a blogger and independent writer focused on consciousness, perception, and human awareness, exploring topics such as dreams, intuition, and non-ordinary states of experience. Driven by a lifelong curiosity about the nature of reality and subjective experience, his perspective was shaped in part by structured study, including the Gateway Voyage program at the Monroe Institute. His writing avoids dogma and sensationalism, instead emphasizing critical thinking, personal insight, and grounded exploration. Through his work, John examines complex and often misunderstood subjects with clarity, openness, and an emphasis on awareness, choice, and personal responsibility.